Me(22M) and my ex girlfriend (23F) broke up two weeks ago, the hardest shit i have ever gone through.I have actually analyzed my and her behaviors, i know what i could’ve done better, i also had my doubts when i was in the relationship, because i was starting to see some red flags( she didnt like my friends and didnt like spending time with my family, while i was spending time with her family every weekend, she triggered very easily, sex part which ill cover later), in my case, we started living together after 3 weeks of dating. Dont get me wrong, the girl meant the world to me and i loved her like i haven’t loved anyone else before, and she loved me back, last couple of weeks we were both stressed, argued a lot, we had no space between us because we were always together, living under the same roof. And just on a random night she confessed about kissing another guy, blamed me as well because i had not been that supportive these last couple of weeks, i forgave her but she still dumped me.She went out with the guy she kissed the very next day. I have realized that i was blinded by the love and had lost respect of myself. I also went full no contact and got rid of the pictures and etc. But yeah it’s freaking hard, and it sucks, but i have to keep going, i just have to give myself time. We also had sex once a month and it was bad. The sexual chemistry wasnt there. She was beautiful but never started the intimate part, it was always me.She didnt have many friends, about 5( 1 girl and 4boys), i trusted her but she literally played me in the end. It sucks. I really hope i can love again someone one day, although it seems impossible. My friends and family have told me that i dodged a bullet when se broke up with me, because i was doing some crazy shit for her family, which could have had bad consequences. I just feel lost and finding love in the future seems impossible. I get these waves when the memories hit me hard. I thought that this is my love of my life and it was first relationship for us both. I know im young, but i feel so freaking lost.

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