Lads how tf do i? For context i am 22M in college and i asked a girl out. I knew her for over a month and we had met a couple of times.
Thing was i liked her for some time and i needed to get smthng and she had it so i got it from her and i gifted her smthng in return anyways we got talkin and met. I asked her out after a month. She wasnt ready- tough time in her life and all that bs but she asked me to wait for her. I was fine w it because i liked her alot. She starts avoiding me the next week and i realise its over. So we didnt talk after that . She removed me from her socials a week ago-a month after rejecting me. And we havent talked at all the past month. And word probably spread that i asked her even after her telling me she wont.
The first time i met her we talked for over 3 hours and as soon as that ended i just wanted to be with her more and more. But after that i was sooo confused because she acted weird yet we still occasionaly talked.
And its not even like we talked alot or whatwver. But still.
But point is I am still not over her. I see her in college every fking day and it hurts. She veryy pretty. I can listen to her all day everyday. Semesters gonna be over in a week but man i miss her. It hurt when she removed me off her socials even though it was already over. It was already before i asked her out i got the feeling she wasnt into me but i just wanted to say it to her. Thought it would clear things up. Everytime i see her with her friends and shes happy i just wanna be with her.
I wanna move past it. But i cant stop thinking about her. I wanna improve myself wanna get over this, but i felt this, this emptiness which was not there when i was with her and i miss that. Its like my life has no purpose now ,past 6 months i was hoping things would go right but this messed me up.
I messed up someway or the other but damn i am not being able to move on. She doesnt give a shit bout me but i miss her. And theres this emptiness in me because of which i just wanna be with her. And i have talked to so many other girls the past month but nah nothing like her.