Let’s start with the beginning
It’s been almost 6years im with my boyfriend.
At first i (f) took birth control for about a year so he could cum inside me. It felt awesome but the birth control fucked my hormones and shit. So i started to have problems and not wanting to fuck as much. 3-4 have been quite difficult. Year 5 my want to fuck him came back and i discovered things about myself and i feel fucking weird about what i like….
I don’t really cum in the way everyone come. I get off by making my boyfriend cum(without the juices if it makes sense) i really like him moaning and enjoying, the feeling is waaay better than orgasm to me. He’s good because he could make me cum in anyway but now it doesn’t and it’s not his fault. It’s me… he turns me on so much, i like every physical feature about him.
I discovered that i like prostate play and i talked to him about it and the most i can do is a finger, i am totally fine with it since it’s soo hot. I also realized I’m more of a dom, i like to tie him up and stuff. The problem is that he also likes to make me cum and pleasure me but what i enjoy is pleasure him and make him orgasm. So that’s a recurring problem and conversation… i also like when he jerk off and i watch but i also feel weird about it. I feel weird about alot of stuff and i think it’s not normal. I shouldn’t be like that…
I’m sorry for the kind of rent and confusion
Idk what to really do?
Should i buy toys that would make me cum so he can use them on me so he can be satisfied?
I’m crushed and idk what to do anymore. So if anyone has any advice for me it would be awesome
It would also be awesome if other girls relate to this to know I’m not the only one feeling mixed up
Thank you and sorry for my all over the place text