So I’ve known this girl for a long time but I never really had any feelings for her in the past. One day I was talking to her and I realized “this girl is beautiful and we get along really well” so I asked her out and she said it’s a bit too soon to jump into anything (I had just come back from uni for the semester and we had really never gotten a chance to talk before so I agree it was too soon) but we started to hangout more often and I got to know her really well. But I think over that time I went from thinking she was cute, to having a crush, to being head over heels about her. I gave it some time and asked her out again and she said she didn’t feel the same way and was scared of relationships because of past relationships. I said it’s all good and we pretended like it never happened and still hangout to this day. But the problem is it’s not all ok. I stay up at night and loose sleep just thinking about her, I’m taunted by thoughts of what if it could work and imagining what it would be like to dance with her and hold her. Ive tried to start going on dating apps again to try to get my mind off her but the few matches I do get I just think that they aren’t her. I don’t know what to do. I don’t plan to stop hanging out with her that’s not an option I won’t loose another friend this way! How to stop loving her?