Been flying solo most of my life. Quiet introvert, probably on the spectrum (Asperger’s, maybe?). No surprise then that school was a bully buffet, elementary through college. Feels like ‘bullied’ is practically tattooed on my soul.
New people? First question every time: ‘Do you have friends?’ (Like, why ask, and why expect sunshine and rainbows?). Makes socializing a mountain climb in sandals, let alone making friends. Jobs? Same deal. Interviews are a circus, and keeping the gigs feels like juggling chainsaws on a unicycle.
So, yeah, social life’s on pause. Comfort’s nice, but that future worry stings – needing someone to take care of me when I’m older.
Not expecting anyone to give me some kind of solution or comforting here. Just wanted to vent, that’s all.