I (23F) am a bisexual lady who really loves beautiful women. I’ve mostly been in a relationships with men. As said I love women and would most definitely see myself having threesome(ffm). I have in a past and now with my current partner (26M). The only problem is that every time I think I’m ready to even talk about it I start to get insecure. I have a good image of myself and I like the way I look but there’s some old insecurities popping up every time I start to seriously have conversations about threesome. And then they get the best of me and I start to overthink everything. I feel like I sabotage my relationship even though this really is a big fantasy of mine. And now I’m in a situation where I’ve proposed the idea but suddenly got very upset because my partner actually talked about it with a potential partner. He was very gentle and non flirty about it with her as I heard and it was more like a casual conversation. He’s been very respectful also to this point so I’m not blaming him at all.
What do I do to calm myself down and also how do I tell him that I’m having second thoughts. I feel like I’m going crazy xd