(18M)Anyways so I have never had a true friend. The only one I did have was taken away from me. Been all alone my entire life, but the thing is. I’m literally like an alien, I don’t get social cues, I can barely communicate too. But when am home is totally the opposite. I feel like am a bit autistic with loads of psychological trauma. I feel like am lost, I know is not necessary to have an identity. But I feel dispensed all over the place. And I have the feeling people see that the whole shy thing is fake. But I can’t help that when am out, it just automatically comes up. Also the only facial expressions I have is smiling and sad. How do you even start with searching for therapy or something??