My gf had a breast cancer scare and didn’t feel right in her body. We went a couple months without sex and I showed a bit of frustration when she was vulnerable. I do regret that.
The results came in negative a month ago and we have continued not to have sex. I want to give her time, the pressure I put on her in the past has made things a lot harder for us to heal.
Whenever, I bring it up I feel like the bad guy and she would tell me to find a way to cope with it.
I feel angry and frustrated whenever I think about sex with her now. Sometimes she makes a very un enthusiastic comment that she would give me a handjob and I turn it down because now it actually makes me squirm. It makes me nervous in a bad way. Not nervous like you’re about to kiss your crush.
The idea alone now makes me angry and cringe.
I’m pretty sure the relationship is over but I am more curious about why I feel angry more than horny or excited.
I apologize for bad grammar.