I’m 30 and will never be able to have a partner. I’m physically extremely unattractive, have severe and complicated mental illness, and I’m slowly dying from progressive chronic illness. I always had some sort of hope in the back of my mind that one day I’d have a partner despite the fact that I’m worthless.
It’s gotten to the point where I know now that’s never going to happen and I need some help trying to figure out how to accept it, because if I see anything related to relationships or dating I begin to feel very hopeless and depressed. I try to cut out everything related to it on the internet but seeing things related to dating or seeing people in relationships, it’s just unavoidable and I’m tired of feeling so heartbroken all the time.
To add, I’m not really interested in the whole self improvement thing. My circumstances don’t really allow me to be any better than I am and there’s nothing I can really do about it.