I tend to have an avoidant personality and when issues arise I’ll just shut down and avoid problems/people. It isn’t healthy but that’s what I do. Anyway, I failed to communicate in a timely manner about not going on a cruise and it backfired, I was supposed to share a room with another girl but I didn’t have the time off at work.
So I’m like I can’t miss anymore work I called off a lot already. And I let them know I can’t go and this is a week out. My therapist had suggested I try the week before to make plans with other coworkers to see if they could cover my shift. That didn’t work out, I would’ve missed tooo many days.
So yea, they had been reaching out to me so I could check in but I didn’t see it because I sorta took a break from the group chat I was in because I didn’t want to see them talking about me or maybe like talking about how I didn’t want to go on the cruise. So I silenced the notifications and they did text me a couple times but I’m not the best texter, someone sends me a message and I look at it thinking I’ll reply later but then it ends up being days later and I don’t.
So I finally get around to checking in and it’s last minute so Ik they’re probably upset it took me that long to check in so the other girl could go. I also had to pay $350 for the other girl so she could go too. Which I guess I had that coming for not going I just suck at communicating, and I’ve been working like 6 days this week with one day off.
So I got caught up with work and my bf but I can’t blame him it’s my fault. I don’t be texting people back it’s awful fr. So I was going to check in but I never replied to my friend asking if I could check in ig I mentally replied in my head but on there end they never knew if I was going to.
So yea this is why I struggle to keep friends, I’m a loner and like I don’t text people back much 😭.