I can’t shake the feeling that, whenever anyone talks to me, they never really want to know me. Most of the time they’re just doing it because they have to. Maybe I could genuinely connect with someone if anyone liked even a fraction of what I do, but they never do, so I never even want to keep talking to people past pleasantries. As a result, I always feel like people are putting on a show whenever they talk to me. I’m already a ways through college and basically have no friends, and I get lonely at times. Most of it is probably my fault for not finding the time to build relationships though. I really want to be able to connect with someone, but I still haven’t found anyone that my brain doesn’t tell me is fake.