Me 22F My boyfriend 24M said he’s willing to stay with me?

Me 22F has been with him for almost two years. Basically I know I have an avoid attachment. I’ve said stuff out of stupid emotions and Ik my flaws. I just keep saying I’ll change and I revert back to what I was before. Me and him were having a fight because he said I constantly don’t valid his feelings and how I expect him to get over it when he’s upset and I’ve told him I don’t expect him to do that and it’s the opposite because I want him to be up. Because he has a habit of When acting like nothing happens and continues conversation like normally. I asked him why he’s still with me when it seems like I’m a bad girlfriend and looks like he compromises his happiness a lot . I’ve ask him a month prior why is he with me and he said “hope” last week he said he’s willing to stay with me and he said if I want to break up just say that. When I asked why he’s with me I didn’t realize till now I just wanted reassurance and asked the wrong way. And when he said willingly I didn’t like that. I wanted him to say something like because he loves me and sees a future . He got upset when I brought up breaking up but if he’s saying how I don’t make him feel a certain way then it makes me wonder why he’s fighting for a relationship that doesn’t look like it’s satisfying him. What you guys think?