My job sometimes involves meeting people from different countries and cultures, the meeting involves going on team dinners etc. When I have to meet people I feel really confident and smart. The conversation during informal dinners has jokes and sarcasm etc between team members. But when I get back home I start over criticizing my conversation and behavior. Like I shouldn’t have laughed so loud or I shouldn’t have said that. The conversation got a little awkward at some point I should have prevented it. It takes me good 2 to 3 days to overcome these thoughts and it is honestly very horrible experience.
TLDR; I feel confident with people in meetings but when I get home I feel like they hate me or they were secretly thinking that I was being stupid.
How do I overcome this? I know we improve our social skills by interacting with new people but I would really appreciate any tips to tackle this post meetup depressive conversation that goes in my head.