My boyfriend doesn’t believe I’m attracted to him because I constantly avoid touching him or sex all together. I think he’s the most attractive guy l’ve ever seen, but the only time I ever initiate sex is right before my period. I almost never have a sex drive, but at the same time I have a lot of kinks and fantasies. He’s always asking me to touch him and he’s always touching me, and I tend to almost always push him away. I’d like to believe that the reason I don’t feel like touching him is because we don’t ever have a good time or place to do it, and that he tends to constantly throw himself at me. I hate touching him and I hate how he touches me. What can I do to fix this?
Tl;dr: boyfriend thinks i’m not attracted to him because I push him away and my sex drive is almost always absent, is this fixable or is it just me?