Im not sure where to start so im sorry in advance if you guys got lost trying to get what im saying + English is not my mother language.
Im a male in my twenties , graduated university and im currently employed and im quite happy with my job.
Since i was young i never struggled with making friends or talking to people i don’t know.
I can easily say that in school college i did had a lot of friends at school or university , even if they were older or younger than me.
even now in my work.
I know everyone and we do have nice small talks here and there.
But no matter what place it is.
I’m always left alone. Once im no more there no one will ever bother to call me or send me a message.
I can be with a group of people where i would figure out that they went to some place together, hadunch as a group.
But im never invited, Despite that they like me
Since high school and till this day
Once im back home i feel numb and can’t find joy in anything.
Watching movies or anime is a headache unlike before where i used to love it.
Video games and social media applications became so boring that I literally hate them now.
in front of everyone im that happy guy who keep smiling and loves his job and who would love to help and people literally said that to my face ( you are very nice , i swear i hated dealing with your department until you started working there , even my manager said to me : i swear you deal with these tasks even better than me)
I do work on my self and try to get certificates in my major to improve my resume, i do workout regularly
But im just sad, im always forgotten and have absolutely no friends.
I was always and still an extrovert but life is forcing me to stay alone and never finding someone to talk to, i even started talking to my self along time ago.
No matter how hard i tried i cant find joy in anything i do