hi um so title says the general idea of this post. i don’t know how to act with others. it just feels really pointless and fake a lot of the time because if i am myself, id come across as rude (i don’t meant to be ofc), boring, or too serious.
im not an outgoing person. i tend to be really reserved but i try to make casual conversation with others and smile a lot so i don’t get asked if im okay or if something is wrong. it’s really tiring and at the end of the day, i feel super empty.
i work a cashier job at a plant nursery so it requires an insane amount of socializing (for my standards at least). it gets really overwhelming sometimes, to the point where i don’t want to be there anymore but i keep pushing and it’s incredibly obvious how fake my laughs/smiles are. i don’t want to fake it anymore, but im scared it’ll turn out bad.
any suggestions as to what i should do or maybe someone that relates?