i do hope this doesnt reach any of them but my boyfriend(21M) and i(18F)have been dating for a little over 1 year and him, just for context, is like a walking green flag, like you dont really see anything wrong with what he’s doing or what but here is where i put my thoughts.
today is his gbf’s(20F) birthday and as he woke up(it was late), after the actual good morning greet he sent, as usual(we’re on ldr), he then mentioned that today is his gbf’s bday and he was saying he forgot all abt it and couldn’t find a photo of her to put on his story. well he did the same thing last year but it was a funny edit of her photo so i didnt really mind, and also, we were friends on facebook so we had an occasional chatting sometimes. and, i know it’s normal for best friends to greet each other and put them on their stories but i really felt uncomfortable. she’s really pretty and i couldn’t say the same thing for me. that was my first thought, the day he first introduced her to me, as his girl best friend, through online only, she’s really pretty, and looking at myself, who wouldn’t feel a little something:’) but she seemed nice at first glance, but as we started chatting, i dont really feel comfortable with her, she seemed like she’s not interested in conversing. but i didnt mind because she’s probably always busy. and apart from that, she’s also close to him and is blessed with wealth so she sometimes would treat him and go out together with him. going back to the story, i replied to him a greet saying happy birthday (her name) with some emojis and effects, he then replied that “im not (her name)”, i felt a little embarrassed as he would usually forward my chat to her or his friends when i greet them there, he also does the same so i was a little surprised, but i went to check on her so i can send my text to her but u couldn’t find her. searched her on the main app and turns out she unfriended me. just as i was curious who the girl was in the screenshot he sent me a couple of days ago, je said it was his gbf and i apologized since i dont really have any update about her on my newsfeed so i dont know whether she has changed her profile photo or what but yeah, turns out she unfriended me, so i didn’t know it was her. so i went back since i have this ugly feeling whenever people unfollows or unfriend me for no reason:( we dont chat often so i didn’t know when she unfriended me. i just disregarded the msg i was abt to send to her. she was looking really pretty. i do admit i get jealous every time he mentions any of his girl best friends(he has two). and the first time i gathered all the courage to speak out about my inconvenience about them, he sent me a chat of them saying they would never want him since hes ugly or something but i know thats just a joke, and the other one said she only really treats him as a friend and that i dont have to worry. i trust them but it still couldnt remove that feeling from my heart coming from my previous relationships with them replacing me instantly, getting bored, or even cheating.
we were supposed to bond today as we’re both busy everytime, and it’s also a holiday today making it a best time to do so, but my mood wouldn’t keep up with his energy now:(
thank you 🫶