In mid 20s. We hang out its great, we go crazy and she does things like drive me and stuff at her own accord. No pressure what so ever. However, I feel every time we hang out she randomly points out short ppl, or height difference between a couple where a girl is short, says omg the ppl in the play were so short, or says things like she is 5’1 and a 5’8 is good for her but like everyone wants tall men. It makes me feel like she thinks short ppl aren’t ppl or something. She is tall but I feel she doesn’t like her shorter cousin so she points out short ppl idk. Its been a couple years of friendship we are super close, know too many secrets about each other. I am bad at conflict resolution I try and avoid conflict so I don’t confront on the spot if certain comment smake me uncomfortable. My problem is that I am short but I do not want to be around someone who possibly views shorter people as less than. Or feeds their ego with it. She is a good friend there for me but I feel at times idk there are toxic parts to her like gossiping a ton so I get worried what if she reveals my secrets to random ppl cuz she has done that to ppl who broke friendships with her in the past. Also what if I am just running from conflict again. Socializing feels so burdenous and like I loose my self respect and don’t call people out at time to avoid consequences and whimp out. This is why I avoid people cuz I feel I loose me in it. I feel directionless and like I use people to just escape at times even tho they don’t align with me. How can I navigate this situation in life? I wanna join new clubs to make more friends or different ones so I can gain more exposure in the world.