I (30f) have really low confidence. All my friends say I’m perfect but I suffer with bad body dismorphoa but they won’t even try to hear me out because they don’t see what I so
Because of this when it comes down to me performing in anyway on top I get stage fright. It’s like everything I know goes out my head and then I just freeze. I’m every otherwise I’m a freak and like everything else except anything which is me being ontop.
But when I’m drunk even if I’m not completely drunk it’s like I can just relax in my head and it doesn’t bother me. It’s embarrassing feeling like I “dont know what to do ontop” because I’ve only tried me ontop a handful of times because of how the stage fright feeling takes over