I (19F) have been w my boyfriend (19M) on and off for about 2 years. We started college and thus long distance in 2023. Things were very rough for the most part and got better by the end of march 2024
In January 2024, i went for a mun along w my other college students (i am in the debating society so they send delegations, in this competition it was both us freshers as well as our seniors). I was certain i would win something since i did pretty good. It was my first MUN. I am a socially awkward person. While the award ceremony was going on, my boyfriend asked me to video call him because he wanted to see me win. I told him i can send him a video but cant call since there are people around and i did not have my earphones to be able to talk. One thing lead to another and we got into a fight. I came third (special mention) and my boyfriend called me a loser for not even being in the first 2 positions.
I was hurt but this was so often then i was able to deal w it. All the students from our college won something and hence we were all very happy. My college has 3 campuses, and mostly students are from the main campus, i however am not. So everyone there was trying to get to know me, talk to me. We clicked pictures etc. I clicked a picture of one of our seniors with a fellow fresher and made a sticker out of it and sent it on the whatsapp group. It was funny then. I didnt tell my boyfriend because we were in no contact.
I genuinely did not think of this being a big deal and hence did not tell him about it after the fight was over (about 2-3 days later). Today, i sent my boyfriend a sticker i made of myself. He didnt like it and wanted me to delete it. I was deleting it but decided to screen record and show it to him that i actually have deleted it. In the app, he could see the previous stickers ive made and saw the one i made in January. He got really mad as to how can i make a sticker of people i barely knew? I told him it was just a sticker to which he responded “a loyal person would never do that”
I fail to understand how is my loyalty being judged by a sticker i made 12 weeks ago. He is mad i didnt tell him or send it to him. I reminded him that were fighting to which he said ”i wouldnt have called u a loser if you werent busy making stickers other guys”.
How do i deal with this? Am i wrong for making a sticker? What should i do?
Tldr; i mare a sticker few weeks ago and my boyfriend got mad because the sticker had only 2 boys in it
UPDATE: Idk why even after reading the comments, i texted him today asking him if he wanted to talk, he told me he didnt. I have my end semester exams going on so i was getting anxious. I asked him when he would be ready? He said not until i apologise for the stickers etc.
I told him my points, he just didnt care. He eventually said that we are done and that i cannot be loved because no one can. I am sososososo emotionally dependent on him, idk what to do now. I cant focus, i cant study, im waiting for him to text me again. I hate this but i feel so helpless.