Yeah I know the title sounds weird. And I’m nervous.
I (f20) get waxed every so often and my boyfriend (m22) and I are about to leave for a music festival in a week. We were talking in the car and I was debating on if I wanted to get waxed or not for the fest. He proceeded to pull out his wallet, give me the exact amount of cash I needed to get the wax and just said “Well now you don’t even have to worry about it, go get your wax.” with the most genuine smile on his face. I’ve never had that happen before.. we’ve been dating 10 months and i’ve had exes that will offer to pay half or not offer at all. He is a general manager at an auto parts store so he makes decent money for his age. He isn’t rich by any means so the fact that he did that without a second thought really meant a lot to me. I loved that he didn’t want me to worry or stress about it as I’ve been working 50+ hour work weeks to have plenty of money for this festival.
However while I did get a warm fuzzy feeling in my heart and felt cared for in that moment I was also hit with a wave of .. horniness? Like in that moment right there I would’ve done anything he asked me to. I was absolutely taken aback by this feeling, I’m not a very sexual person but I was willing to do *ANYTHING* for him at that time.
I’m worried because I love him and I don’t want to tell him that it turned me on because I don’t want him thinking I just want his money… I buy things for him all the time, and he does the same for me, I feel as though our entire relationship I have always been willing to pay for anything if I had the means. I never ever want just his money. He is the most caring man I have ever had the pleasure of meeting and spending time with. My worst fear is him thinking that I only want sex when he gives me money because I’ve never been that crazy in the moment before. I don’t know what happened but I’m pretty worried right now, should I talk to him about it or will that make things worse? If it happens again I know that feeling will come back and he will start to notice.