I basically screwed my freshman and sophomore years of high school. If I do graduate on time, I will be cutting it very close, and after a seemingly never ending pile of credit remediation over my last remaining summer breaks of high school. It could have been avoided if I wasn’t a bitch and constantly depressed. I really want to live, make friends, have a severe case of FOMO, and was planning on spending this summer at parties; urban exploring, thrifting, volunteering, going to a summer camp that looks good on college apps, taking more shifts at my job, etc., but have to do summer school pretty much the entire summer.
There are only two weeks where I’m free, and my friends are on vacation. These friends never hang out anyway and are the type to flake out on everything and not just spontaneously decide to hang out (like normal teenagers. What’s worse is that we live in pretty dense suburbia, but many other kids still meet up all the time with their friends anyway. I’m at a different school from them right now, but am transferring back to the high school they’re in, so it might get easier, but I doubt it. I only have a couple of summer breaks left before college, and I’m freaking out.
Last summer I was depressed and didn’t do anything + struggled with anorexia. The summer of being 16 is supposed to be a pivotal time for teens coming of age, but I’m literally going to be stuck in a classroom. I don’t know what to do. I’m not sure what’s worse, being genuinely depressed over the summer from the beginning, or being hyped up for summer & happy, only to be stuck in the same place you’ve been in for the last year