I just had the most amazing foreplay/sex but I don’t know how to handle it at the same time.
My boyfriend is pretty strong (able to lift me up) and there has been times where he held me down by pressing my shoulder, but he never told me how much he was into it. Last night, he admitted to liking the idea of choking me. I let him, allowing for double-tapping to stop, and it felt really good. I liked choking him even more – having that much control over him and watching him get turned on by it.
We were sucking on each other’s fingers, he was throwing me on the bed. He was fingering and rubbing my clit roughly and it felt better than it ever had before. I gave him head during all this and he said it was the best orgasm he’d ever had. If we’d been home alone, I would’ve let him be as loud/rough as he could.
He says he wants me to initiate sex more, and I want to, but I don’t know what to do with all this. I told him we couldn’t be that rough every time and he agreed, but I don’t know how to incorporate all this into our sex life consistently. I also don’t know how to differentiate between what we do sexually and how he feels emotionally.
I want to use him in the bedroom, and I enjoyed having power over him. I enjoyed him having power over me, especially when it got me off more than he ever has. That being said, feeling used is kind of hard for me, and feeling objectified. Obviously I want to go ahead with this kind of stuff, but how do I not feel used? And how do we decide how far to go/what stuff to do?