I try my best to counter the occasional depressive episode via good sleep, exercise, and drinking plenty of water. But still, it always comes back. I thought the meds prescribed by my doctor would help. But no. My mind is stuck on this fog- like thinking for days. Before finally vanishing. Then back again for a round two. Obviously it's been destroying my social skills. I haven't been able to talk to anyone. If I do it's usually grunts like some caveman.
I don't blame my friends for not hanging out with me. Having all this negative energy spreads like wildfire. Not to mention, I just look miserable everywhere. Resulting in locking myself in my room.
Now, if I am lucky with this connection from a friend I might have a job in customer support. How the hell do I make myself more social when I got a dark cloud floating above my head? I can fake smile and put on a mask. But my mind is in a constant state of screaming.