I've (F22) had a prudish upbringing. For a long time, I couldn't imagine being sexual with a person because of how dirty it seemed to be, despite having sexual needs.
now that I'm kinda getting used to the idea of sex, but like, only with a person that I love, could I open up and be sexual but it's gotta be vanilla.
cuz even something like a blowjob seems degrading in a way to me. I dont know why? Now that I'm dating for the first time, I really wanna please my partner but I just can't with the mindset I have regarding sex.