I am constantly finding myself attracted to and lusting over new people. Any gender really, if someone gives me positive attention or compliments I will go home that night and masturbate to that thought…. It’s actually quite dysfunctional I feel like. Because I starve off these fantasies until late at night when the thought crosses my mind. I’m like a little dog humping someone’s leg but I’m a person and at that a woman.
I would never act on it unless there was further development, but I do get off thinking about it. I feel extremely horny at any really positive experience I have with someone I always feel sexually. I don’t know if that’s intended or normal or what. I thought I could be neutral about my coworkers but I’m gonna be honest some of the overwhelmingly nice ones send me into overdrive. This sounds so weird now that I explain it, I’m also lonely too. I’ve slept with people I ideally wouldnt and I’ve also never been in a relationship.
I’ve been training at a new job for and each day I’ve definitely come home and masturbated thinking about a coworker that was extremely kind and attentive to me. One lady complimented my outfit, one told me I was going to be much better off here, and a male told me I was doing great. Do I have a praise kink or something??
Is there a chance that I’m not crazy and these experiences are more sensually based or am I just starved for attention? I don’t know anything other than flirtatious situations and hookups. I feel like the world is confusing for that because someone being nice could in no way be meant to be taken sexually. I actually feel bad about it. But other times I’m like wait they could have been giving me praise because they felt like that too.