Hello,
I'm a F(20) and the guy I have been in love with is M(22).
I have loved him for a really long time now (6 years) and he is also my first love.
The reason I'm saying I shouldn't get married is because I feel as though he isn't ever going to leave my heart. He knows I love him but he's bisexual and largely leans towards men in terms of preference. I confessed to him once and he rejected me, he even said he knew since I made it obvious.
Whenever I think of him, text him or even see him my heart flutters and he is all I can think of…been going on for 6 years (known him for 7 years).
I had a boyfriend around 4 years ago while I was trying to get over him but it didn't work out and I was unable to move on.
I met so many guys but none had made my heart move like he has.
I have come to the conclusion that if I'm meant to love him my entire life I might as well not get married, I want to be able to love my spouse with my whole heart.
I'm also Christian and the bible says:
Hebrews 13:4, “Have respect for marriage. Always be faithful to your partner, because God will punish anyone who is immoral or unfaithful in marriage.”
I know I'm still young, so I will keep my heart open but if I feel as though I can't stop loving him nor move on, I will stay unmarried.