So, this is a throwaway, because this is the most embarrassing thing I've ever confessed to anyone.
So, I'm not sure how to say this so I'm just going to. I'm planning to ask my husband if he would be willing to do a few things with me that would almost definitely gross him out. I would like to lick his butthole.
Also, if he's ok with it, I would like to ask him if he would be open to letting me watch him go poop. Or maybe if he would be willing to watch me go.
For the 9 years I've been with him, all three of those things have been a fantasy of mine.
I know it's absolutely disgusting and I fucking hate myself for it but it is what it is. I figured it would be better to just get it off my chest at this point.
I'm thinking of maybe a really nice evening, with flowers, and maybe a small gift, and when the time is right asking him. I don't know what the hell to even say though.