it’s rly annoying and honestly scary (not saying either of those things are bad), it’s like an identity crisis. i struggle with eye contact BUT only if i think about it. alcohol makes me feel so much more normal and comfortable and better at conversation but then again, doesn’t it do that for everyone. sometimes i struggle with conversation and i feel like i can’t talk to people or make a connection as easily as other people can, but surely that’s not bc i have autism. i got so convinced by it, then i looked up the symptoms n i literally don’t have them.
i feel like i’m generally quite confident sometimes, unless i’m having a down day, and i can usually talk to strangers but i only do if they talk first or it’s like customer service stuff. it’s mainly people that i kinda know but not well enough to sit with one on one that i struggle talking to, but surely that’s the same with everyone, right?
idk what to think tbh, a lot of my close friends are autistic or have adhd so that makes it more confusing for me bc ik it’s common for nd people to befriend each other.
some insight would be great, anyone who doesn’t have them but still struggles? i’m not in a position to be diagnosed with anything either so i won’t be finding out either way.