im scared of my moms judgement

im so scared of my moms judgement. I'm scared to try different clothes and overall just experiment with stuff that's not typical for a boy. my mom has this attitude with my style with sayings like "are you wearing that" "did you again buy those gross ugly pants that i dont like" and " but thats a girls shirt" and other remarks on how she dislikes something bout my it. recently i've wanted to experiment with slight eyeliner but i just can't bring myself to do it bc im afraid that she'll be really negative again