Our history and about us
We had originally met on a dating app we were on and off but in the start of 2021 we decided to date and it went great and we both quickly fell in love. Yet we lived with our parents still and it was over 1 hour away so we would often get hotel or something or meet up half way. She works a lot of hours and she doesn’t get to see me too many days of the week too. I do stay over her moms house and i still live with my parents as we are saving for our own homes. So we dont always have a nice place to hangout. We would have some good times going out to eat and going to events when we could. As time went on she got really into the idea of getting married I was still very in love with her so we went ring shopping and eventually I got her a ring. Now in 2022 I stage a big surprise party for our engagement it goes well. I am also really into her family I like everyone and most of her freinds are cool too and some I even hangout with at times. But since the engagement a few months ago she got stranger and stranger.
Where it is now
We have over last few months gotten into more weird talks where she gets caught up in this drama where she doesn’t know now if this is for her. Typically when she would have this talk with me she would just blame work and tell me she loves me and it’s fine but…..
Recently I got very very sick from lynes Disease the day I started coming down with it and I didn’t realize it we went out to eat and she didn’t like how I was quiet and acting weird. And she said she just had a really bad feeling about it all. We talk it through she tells me not to worry and she loves me. The next day shit hit the fan I became extremely ill with a high fever this lasted for days. She was only semi nice and supportive as I told her updates. Then she realized I would miss her bday and she became upset as I wasn’t getting better. Then I made it clear and even sent her screen shots of my medical report showing my issues she backed off a bit but then she still became colder. She was out at a bar with her freinds while I was very ill for example. On her bday I called to wish her a happy birthday and then we talked and she just came clean she was getting bad second thoughts…..we had just mailed out wedding invitations I was devastated. I wanted to just end as I felt she didn’t love me but she pleaded she did and she would try to find the feelings. She said she she didn’t feel the emotional connection and spark anymore…. but now as I recover she asked me to still see her this weekend and see how it goes. Keep in mind we haven’t ended anything we have a wedding deposit a joint bank account, family and freinds still thinking we are getting married. Lynes Disease sucks the antibiotics ravage your body I get weird aches and pains and she doesn’t seem to get that. I’m doing a lot better but I still love her and wonder if I could have some how sparked us sooner…..but I have mentally prepared for us splitting….today we barely even said much over text …