I [25F] have been friends with this girl [26F] for the last 11 years. Our relationship hasn’t always been the best, but as adults I thought it was getting better.
I love her, she’s my best friend. She means so much to me. She recently came to visit over the weekend, since she lives a few states away now.
I thought overall we had a great time. Then once she got home she kinda stopped replying to my texts. So I decided to just give her space. Today she sent me a message and said how uncomfortable she was because she thinks that I have a crush on her.
And this isn’t the first time she’s ever acted like this. She’s accused me before of having romantic feelings towards her, and I’ve had to reassure her multiple times that I’ve never thought of her that way.
This time when she brought it up, it really really hurt for some reason. I once again reassured her that I don’t like her like that. But she told me she doesn’t trust me. Mostly because of things that happened in her past.
I’m just so hurt…I honestly don’t feel like continuing this friendship anymore. I feel like I’m constantly on the defense, and walking on eggshells when it comes to things that I can say around her. 🙁
Idk. I have Borderline Personality Disorder, so this shit is hard. I can’t tell if I’m the problem. But I just don’t feel like doing this anymore 🙁
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Sorry you’re on the receiving end of that. It can be tough. I think you’re doing a good job communicating with her. I know it’s disheartening when it’s the second time it happens. Some distance can be healthy. Hang in there, you got this. 🙂