Anxiety

This is probably pathetic and I should just get over it. I can’t bring myself to talk to females anymore. I messed up over 4 years ago and when I took a girl out to a prom and I was interested in her, way too interested and I was being obsessive with her and I was too open about my feelings even after she had told people she wasn’t into and I kept aggravating her and it almost lead to me getting a harassment charge against me. A few months later a started talking to another girl at my school I was attracted to and once again I was way too in my feelings. I had also took her to a dance . I was way too attracted to her to the point I was being obsessive with her and it drove her away and it almost led to me getting a charge against me once again. Then a few months later I took a girl to another dance and had asked her to dance but she just blew me off. It made me realize that deep down I’m going to spend life alone. I decided to not let myself to get attracted to anyone ever again of fear that I would be way to attracted and obsessive to them. I know its a part of life and not everyone shares the same feelings as us and it’s been over 4 years and I’ve just isolated myself and I won’t allow myself to enjoy life out of fear of being hurt again and I’m way too awkward around people too due to not interacting with them much growing up