i probably should put this into r/depression but here goes. I don’t know how to be “human”. When i’m with people, my “friends” i just am completely emotionless, completely thoughtless, i hear and comprehend everything they say but i just can’t relate to anything they say. i find nothing of noteworthy about them but they want me to be with them (or do they? i don’t really know) they invite me to parties and to grill and hangout but i just can’t find any reason in it. They’ve even jokingly called me a robot or android, since i don’t really act human since i’m mostly silent just standing around listening to everyone, they like to joke that i’m “gathering information on how to act human” and as soon as they laugh i just laugh along.
I don’t really know how to just be either. i need to have some purpose to be somewhere or something to do, once someone mentioned to me that i always ask a purpose or what we’re going to be doing like a robot for it’s mission. and i chuckled along with him since it was supposed to be humorous but after that i started to pay attention to how i act and i came to the conclusion that i really do act like a non-human and abnormally.
so the conclusion is me asking if anyone else either feels this way or knows is this really abnormal or out of the ordinary?
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I’m literally on the same boat as you bro and I’m sure there are a lot of people like us but being sad about our problems won’t help us in anyway. I think u must focus on improving yourself by trying to engage in their conversations, that’s what I’m doing these days like now i made this comment eventho I know I’m not good at giving advices 🥲